To Me, From Me

Dear Bryony,

I hope you're still as happy as you are in this precise moment. Your 9 month old daughter is sleeping next to you. Your 3 year old son is having some Nannie and Grandad time. You're waiting for your fiancé to come home from a long day at work providing for your family and you feel like the luckiest girl in the world that you have found such a decent and caring man who will soon be your husband.

I hope you're still writing your blog, I know how flakey you can be with new projects if they don't go the way you want them to go. You're good at this, keep writing, if only for you. If you haven't blogged for a while, get your feelings written down onto paper now. Have you sorted that rash on your arm yet? Has it gone? If not, get to the Dr because that ain't normal, it's been a year, sort yourself out. 

You better not be pregnant again. 

Do you look in the mirror now and smile at what you see? We made a pact remember? Do you still feel as blessed with what you have? Maybe even more so? Have you started going out more to see your friends? I know it's hard but you have to try. Go on, put on your make up and go explore the world with your two beautiful children who will both be walking by now and one will be in nursery and nearly ready to start school... oh my god.

Sorry, I freaked out a little bit there... I'm calm now. Are you any closer to setting a wedding date? You know how much you are eager to get married to that perfect man you call your fiancé, 5 years is long enough as an engagement, give him a kick up the bum. If you're already married then... YAY. 

Remember that you have so much worth. You are beautiful. You are kind. You are strong. Always be who you want to be, not who everyone else wants you to be. 

Love Bryony.